love with words.

Disappointment is a crazy thing. It can come in the most unexpected ways. Plans, people, whatever. I think the most shocking form of disappointment is when you realize something you trusted so much, something you have leaned on your whole life, is just a bunch of falsehoods put together to look pretty. And then we come to people. I’ve experienced great disappointment from people I’ve JUST met, but never as much as people I thought I knew. I don’t think i know of anything worse than finding out someone is not who you thought they were. Especially if they turn out to be a mean person. I’ve recently been forced to take a step back and really evaluate my relationships, and by “forced to take a step back” I mean punched in the gut and shoved back. People are not who I thought they were. Some of these people claim to be of God. Do you think God wants you to have people live in fear of you? Do you think God likes the fact that his little children are going home and crying because of things you’ve done and said to them? Heck no. I’m sick of church. I realize now why none of my friends want to come to my church. No actually, let me correct that. I’m not sick of church. I’m sick of the people in it and I’m sick of being afraid of them. With Him on my side, what can man do to me?