love with words.

there are many people say suicide is a very selfish thing. there are many who do it for that very reason. and then there are a few who sincerely believe they are worth nothing. there are a few who believe they’re doing the world a favor by leaving it. to that girl who feels like she’s never been loved, and to that boy who feels he’s never been good enough. to those people who have never felt accepted for who they are. I love you. please take a second to think about the people you surround yourself with. and if they don’t love you for who you are, come find me.

I don’t want any of this.

Disappointment is a crazy thing. It can come in the most unexpected ways. Plans, people, whatever. I think the most shocking form of disappointment is when you realize something you trusted so much, something you have leaned on your whole life, is just a bunch of falsehoods put together to look pretty. And then we come to people. I’ve experienced great disappointment from people I’ve JUST met, but never as much as people I thought I knew. I don’t think i know of anything worse than finding out someone is not who you thought they were. Especially if they turn out to be a mean person. I’ve recently been forced to take a step back and really evaluate my relationships, and by “forced to take a step back” I mean punched in the gut and shoved back. People are not who I thought they were. Some of these people claim to be of God. Do you think God wants you to have people live in fear of you? Do you think God likes the fact that his little children are going home and crying because of things you’ve done and said to them? Heck no. I’m sick of church. I realize now why none of my friends want to come to my church. No actually, let me correct that. I’m not sick of church. I’m sick of the people in it and I’m sick of being afraid of them. With Him on my side, what can man do to me?

Rock The Universe!! Man! Where to start?! Well I rode a GIANT roller-coaster…and yes, it went upside down…and yes, I was sobbing by the end. Met Anberlin. Stephen Christian looked up at me and was like “hey! I’m Stephen!” and I introduced myself and..wait for it…he said he liked my dress. Holy crap. LOVE HIM.
Saw Switchfoot. Jon Foreman blew.my.mind. Overall, amazing amazing weekend..so far!

dear college, your kicking my butt.

i think i needed it. thanks.

To lovewithwords..or Leslie. :) I haven’t completely figured out Tumblr yet but I just wanted to say thank you thank you thank you for your kind words. They mean SO MUCH to me!! I was truly blessed by your note and before I could save it, it disappeared. :( but I wanted to just say a quick public thanks and I am praying for both you and Parker. Keep your eyes lifted high, dear! <3 Kimmy

SPENDING TIME alone with Me is essential for your well-being. It is not a luxury or an option; it is a necessity. Therefore, do not feel guilty about taking time to be with Me. Remember that Satan is the accuser of believers. He delights in heaping guilt feelings upon you, especially when you are enjoying My Presence. When you feel Satan’s arros of accusation, you are probably on the right track. Use your shield of faith to protect yourself from him. Talk with Me about what you are experiencing, and ask Me to show you the way forward. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to Me, and I will come near to you.

I AM YOUR BEST FRIEND, as well as your King. Walk hand in hand with Me through your life. Together we will face whatever each day brings: pleasures, hardships, adventures, disappointments. Nothing is wasted when it is shared with Me. I can bring beauty out of the ashes of lost dreams. I can glean Joy out of sorrow, Peace out of adversity. Only a Friend who is also the King of kings could accomplish this divine alchemy. There is no other like Me!

The friendship I offer you is practical and down-to-earth, yet it is saturated with heavenly Glory. Living in My Presence means living in two realms simultaneously: the visible world and unseen, eternal reality. I have equipped you to stay concious of Me while walking along dusty earthbound paths.

I went to my childhood church this past Sunday. I grew up in that place and it is truly bittersweet every time I return. The pastor was speaking out of John 6. He was talking about when Jesus fed the thousands with five loaves and two fish. After the whole exchange, the people decide to camp out on the hill to stay near Him. While they were sleeping, Jesus and His desciples went across the lake. When the people awoke and found He had left, they went after Him. They were quite a ways behind Him but eventually caught up. Basically, they followed Him to get more food or witness more miracles. Jesus told them that HE is the bread if life. They were following Him for a free “meal ticket”. How many of us follow Christ just for those times when we need food or money or help in some way? This has really made me think for the past few days and really analyze why I follow God and make sure it’s the right reason.